Hello there to whom may read this post. 😊 I am typing this to get this feeling off my chest, a feeling that has been brewing ever since I was young and has now been brought to my awareness through the many experiences I went through.
It now has dawned on me that the “reality” that everyone in my life experiences on a daily basis is, to me, no different than the television shows or books that I had read in the past. What I mean by this is that the “me” that is observing over the events around me sees no distinction between what I see in my waking state verses what I see on television/books/movies. And this isn’t a new way of thinking for me; this is a way of thinking I had always had ever since I was young. I cam recall moments where I was watching T.V. and the show I’m watching has a character that I at the time could resonate and relate with going through something and discovering a piece of information that is pertinent to their situation, then fast forward to a day later I find myself in a situation where all I had to do is remember that information that character found and use it as a suggestion, which ultimately was the correct choice to make. And with several moments like that (which I honestly could make a great novel out of 😅) it makes me almost apathetic in a way because I feel like I’m in a dream where I am the architect of the dream and I am constantly surrounded by dream characters that are not fully aware that they are in a dream or are in the same state of mind as me to realize that they have the same potential like me to change their reality and actually see the dream for what it is.
It also raised philosophical questions in myself about the “architects” of this reality. If I can go through life with a breeze by understanding the hidden messages in books and T.V. shows and be considered as some “genius”, then exactly how much of this reality is fake? Is it fake? What actually is “real”? It seems corny now because “pop culture” misconstrued and abused what the hidden messages in movies like The Matrix is portraying but when you really take the time and look at things as symbolic representations and try to understand what the symbols are saying then you’ll understand questions like, “What is consciousness?” and variations of the same questions I’m asking.
But if you are anything like me, you look at the ones society calls “crazy” and view them as unfortunate individuals who were doing exactly what I’ve been doing: finding answers through the symbols and experiences, but getting lost by the pitfalls and the traps the “architects” laid and say to yourself, ” I don’t want to end up like that.” So in an attempt to inform others you have to think about how to say it, when to say it, what will their reactions be, what will you say to deescalate them, and how they can do the same. Just so that you want to say, “This is all a dream! This is not real! Nothing is going to happen to you, just keep a level head and breathe!” to everybody and not appear insane. 😅😔 Sometimes I wonder to myself if I am close to one of those traps and I don’t want to admit it, but for the sake of others who are not like me I try to act like everything is okay when I am in possession of knowledge that in earlier timelines I could get killed for.
I apologize if this post is too confusing; since I feel comfortable expressing myself and I feel in the mood to share my perspective about things.😁😅 I know that there are people out there like me and they’re probably wondering the same thing like me and more. This post is meant to be for catharsis and curiosity.